Its been 7 months since i put up my last post; and i myself having asking the question why!
Its been an eventful 7 months. My wife and me were blessed with a l'il bundle of joy in December '09 and since then life has not been the same. To top it all, the Gud Ole' Man up there has been teaching me things in the silent; lessons that i have to experience to learn and realizations that He gives me of things past. Truly when i look back at life, He has been taking me through and teaching me the cost of discipleship. But during this time if there has been something constant, it is His love for me, His provisions that never fail, His grace that has been new every morning and His mercy that still chooses not to give up on me.
Coming back to why there have been no posts - one simple word: stealing. If i were to summarize the most pre-dominant feeling i've faced over the last couple of months its been a down of dealing with no confidence, no self-esteem and no self-worth. And the more i think about it, its because i've allowed the red guy to steal away from within me all the treasures that the Gud Ole' Man has placed in me. Worse still, that i allowed myself to believe the lies that guy told me about who i was.
And so it was until the Lord gradually helped me regain my confidence (this time the right way up), renewed my energy through His Word and kept me reminded through 1 Cor 7, His grace is all i need. I don't need to complain anymore, for i have the gift of the handicap from Him to keep me in touch with my limitations; for when i am weakest He is strong.
With that attitude, i'm back n ready. Lead on Father!
Its been an eventful 7 months. My wife and me were blessed with a l'il bundle of joy in December '09 and since then life has not been the same. To top it all, the Gud Ole' Man up there has been teaching me things in the silent; lessons that i have to experience to learn and realizations that He gives me of things past. Truly when i look back at life, He has been taking me through and teaching me the cost of discipleship. But during this time if there has been something constant, it is His love for me, His provisions that never fail, His grace that has been new every morning and His mercy that still chooses not to give up on me.
Coming back to why there have been no posts - one simple word: stealing. If i were to summarize the most pre-dominant feeling i've faced over the last couple of months its been a down of dealing with no confidence, no self-esteem and no self-worth. And the more i think about it, its because i've allowed the red guy to steal away from within me all the treasures that the Gud Ole' Man has placed in me. Worse still, that i allowed myself to believe the lies that guy told me about who i was.
And so it was until the Lord gradually helped me regain my confidence (this time the right way up), renewed my energy through His Word and kept me reminded through 1 Cor 7, His grace is all i need. I don't need to complain anymore, for i have the gift of the handicap from Him to keep me in touch with my limitations; for when i am weakest He is strong.
7To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Cor 12, The Message)
With that attitude, i'm back n ready. Lead on Father!